This was a hard ad-libbed poem for me to do!
It has been a really difficult and sad time for me lately, because on Sunday 29th of October, I had to split with my asexual boyfriend. The guy who I thought was my soulmate, and who was really kind, sweet and loving towards me, turned out not to be so nice after all, not loving me like he first did, or valuing my worth, and in fact exhibited some controlling behaviour, so I had to save myself any more heartache and split! It is hard when you think you know someone, you bring down many of your barriers to try to trust again, after previous past abusive relationships, then find out they are not the person you thought they are and turned out to be someone who would cause you more pain. He did a good job of fooling me!! I really thought he truly and deeply cared for me, but I was mistaken. I don’t think he knew the true meaning of the word love! His behaviour appeared to change so quickly!
I wrote an Asexual Newsletter which you can find here, about how his behaviour changed and about some of the signs of controlling behaviour that you may want to look out for! And about how sometimes, you have to be your own hero and save yourself and get out of a relationship that is no good for you, no matter how painful it may be: http://mailchi.mp/a50715303715/asexual-break-up-how-to-be-your-own-hero
Here is the full Asexual-Dating playlist so far, if you want to know more about my asexual dating journey!
If you are ever threatened with if you do x, y, or z, I will leave you, excluding domestic violence of course, then you are under that persons’ control and it is time to leave, however hard that may be!