You Could Change In A Heartbeat If You Wanted To, But I Know You Won’t Change Because It Is Too Much Hard Work For You, And That Won’t Do!
When Work Shows Up, You Flinch Away, Although You Work Hard In Your Job, Every Day.
You Never Stop To Think, About A Meaningful Life; Beyond What You Are Used To. Because To Think Like That Is Scary, And You Would Rather Live In Fear And Be Weary!
You Never Stop For One Moment And Considered, You Could Have Everything You Ever Dreamed Of, If You Hadn’t Dithered, And Gone Back To Your Old Ways, What A Waste Of Days.
It’s A Waste Of Time; Of Love, It’s A Crime!
Maybe One Day You Will Look Back At What You Did, You Will Feel Sorry That It’s Me You Went To Hid.
You Will One Day Find Out That These Other Girls Never Cared About You, Then What Will You Do?
You Will Keep Getting Older And None The Wiser, You Will Keep Being A Coward Without An Advisor.
But I Also See Braveness In You, And How Far You Have Come Too.
But The Thing You Are Most Afraid Of, The Lonliness That Will Lead To Despair, Will Be There.
Still I Wish You Well, I Wish All My Love For You Will Impress Upon Your Heart, Some New Found Meaning, Even Though You Pushed Us Apart.
I Wish For You The Best, Even Though I Find It Hard To Rest.
I Find It Hard To Let You Go, But You’ve Already Moved On Without A Care, I Know!
Even Though You Gave Up Easily, Can’t You See, I Was So Good For You, Even Though You Weren’t For Me!
If You Actually Knew How Your Behaviour Affected Me, If You Were In My Position, Would You See?
You Could Change In A Heartbeat If You Wanted To, But I Know That Is Something You Will Never Do!
Sometimes someone may come into your life, who is far from perfect, but you see the hidden gems in them. You see the best in them, their warm heart, their beautiful face, their young words of wisdom encased in an old soul. You think this is it! This is the awesome person that I may have been waiting for all my life, maybe as a friend or maybe more.
But as months go by and your bond grows, your insticts are not 100% agreeing with your vision and very soon, the real person emerges, but this time these imperfections are more that that, they are an innocent and naive weapon, in the fight to control the situation and you. They are an intentional stab in the back, because you did not do what they wanted you to do. Because you weren’t there, they quickly replaced you with someone else. While you were expected to wait for them when they demanded it and ‘told’ you. And worse of all, they turned to one of your own friends, whom you know is a good person and known for years. And you are left with a feeling of betrayal, hurt and pain, all the whilst knowing that your friend although not interested in the same way, is also being used and they do not reply to you.
You toughen up and come to your senses, you feel pity for their insecurities, hurt by the redicule of your own hurt – as if it is some sort of joke, that lies seemed to have come flooding out like a volcano with multiple colours of lava flowing into the other. And you take back your own power, control and sense of calm in your life, by blocking them out from yours, as much as possible.
You feel a sense of peace, because for once in your life, you love yourself enough, to set yourself free. Free from the pain, the anguish and hurt, and not waste your life giving this person chances, but know that you can find someone else who will care about you and respect you no end. Even if they have not entered your life yet, you are confident and self-assured that they will do!
Some friends come and go – so do some loves. But the one thing I want you to remember, is to never leave your own soul. Never leave the true you. Never let yourself cry or be in pain longer than you need to be, to rid yourself from it naturally. Be there for yourself no matter what. To take the role of the father, the mother, and the child within you, when each situation calls for it. But most of all, to be the bestest ever friend to yourself, to love yourself implicitly, and to not settle for anything less than than what is good and right for you. Remember these 3 simple words to say to yourself – I LOVE YOU!
Always stay positive and be you.
Love Sandra xx